Michael Carrick has said he asked not to be picked for England after becoming "depressed" on international duty.
Manchester United midfielder Carrick won 34 senior caps, the last of them in a friendly against Spain in November 2015, but said his experience at the 2010 World Cup in South Africa had left a lasting impression.
"I'd been in the squad a long time and, I'll be honest, I was finding it hard going away with England," he told BBC2's Premier League Show.
"I didn't mind going away with United preseason for three weeks or whatever and coming back but, going with England, it was almost depressing in a way.
"It made me really down, so I came to the point after South Africa where I thought: 'I can't do that again.'
"People would be saying: 'Pull yourself together and be grateful for it' and I understood the position I was in, the privileged position I was in, but I just found it so hard and I couldn't deal with it any more.
"I was probably on the verge of ... yes, I was depressed at times, yes. I told the FA: 'Look, please don't pick me.'"
Carrick, 36, last month announced his intention to retire as a player at the end of the season, when he will join the coaching staff at United.