MILWAUKEE -- During the two years that have passed since he used an antisemitic slur while playing a video game, Meyers Leonard often wondered whether he would ever suit up for an NBA team again.
The 7-footer's gratitude was evident Wednesday after signing a 10-day contract with the Milwaukee Bucks. Leonard said it felt "almost euphoric" to practice for the first time with his new team.
"To take a chance on me like this, it takes a lot of courage," Leonard said.
Leonard hasn't appeared in an NBA game since January 2021, when he injured his shoulder while playing for the Miami Heat. Two months later, he used an antisemitic slur while playing a video game online that others watched on a livestream.
The Heat told him to stay away indefinitely, and NBA commissioner Adam Silver fined him $50,000. Miami eventually traded him to the Oklahoma City Thunder, who released him shortly afterward.
Leonard tried to make amends while also recovering from surgeries to his shoulder and ankle, the second of which resulted in what he called "a bit of a nerve issue." He pondered walking away from the game.
"But that would have been the coward's way out, to run away and say I've made enough money, I want to go start my life elsewhere," Leonard said. "I felt like I owed it to anyone who's ever believed in me, my family, my son, to make this right."
During his time away from the NBA, Leonard devoted himself to reaching out to the Jewish community.
Shortly after the video came out showing him using the slur, Leonard issued a statement saying he didn't know the meaning of the word he had said but adding that "my ignorance about its history and how offensive it is to the Jewish community is absolutely not an excuse and I was just wrong."
Leonard has since spoken and worked with several Jewish groups, conducted a number of basketball camps for Jewish children, and apologized numerous times for what he said and his ignorance about what the word meant.
He briefly choked up while speaking to reporters Wednesday about everything that had transpired in his life over the past two years and how he had grown from it.
"I always try to look at life glass half-full, but obviously there were times when it was very, very, very dark," Leonard said.
The former Illinois star reached out to the Jewish communities in South Florida, at his alma mater and in Los Angeles, where he was recovering from his injuries. Leonard said he intends to do the same in Milwaukee.
"It means something to me," Leonard said. "It does. It's part of me. I won't stop. I can't stop."
Bucks coach Mike Budenholzer vouched for Leonard's character, pointing out the positive steps Leonard has taken since March 2021.
"Meyers has been really, really diligent and conscientious about engaging with the Jewish community, acknowledging that there's no place for antisemitism or antisemitic slurs or any type of hate speech," Budenholzer said. "The genuineness with how he's talked to us about it, he's talked publicly. We feel like he's a person of high character that has owned and tried to make this an educational opportunity for himself and others."
The Associated Press contributed to this report.